The Sanskrit word granthi means knot, and in the Bhagavad Gita, granthi is referred to as doubt, and freedom from doubt can be achieved by taking refuge in a higher power. This higher power is whatever that resonates with us, the God of our choice, or nature, or the Universe, or the collective consciousness, or whatever it is that may be bigger than our ego attachments.
Most if not all of us have doubts. We question whether we are worthy enough, lovable enough, capable enough, or good enough. These doubts are not always expressed, because there is a culture of shame surrounding admitting our perceived inadequacies. And so, we may feel trapped in this cycle of having to put on a brave mask while tucking our insecurities into a small corner of our secret selves. What happens with doubts unacknowledged and unresolved is that they slowly gnaw at us, limiting our potential and preventing us from seeing that we could be fully enlightened beings.
As yogis, we are keen on experimenting with our bodies and minds to find what gives us freedom and happiness. I invite you to take this three-part experiment with me. Just for today, whenever doubts come up at the level of thought, acknowledge them, observe them, then let go of them. You may catch yourself thinking along the lines of: Who am I to know what I am doing? Who am I to deserve love? Who am I to deserve happiness? When that happens, surrender that doubt to a higher power. Trust that you do not have to hold on to it. And just for today, whenever you notice doubts included in your speech, acknowledge them, observe them, then let go of them. You may notice how it has become a habit to say: But I can't, or I'm not sure, or Maybe someone else. When that happens, know that it is a habit you learned which you are capable of unlearning through conscious and persistent effort. And just for today, whenever doubts are the prime reason for the actions or inactions you take, acknowledge them, observe them, then let go of them. You may observe yourself doing any of these things: hesitating to try something new, worrying about what others think, not doing something out of fear of failure. Doubt is a knot and we can untie this knot if we choose to surrender to someone or something bigger than us.
Look deep within. Take a moment to assess if there is a persistent knot of doubt ruling your life and preventing you from experiencing freedom. Then ask yourself: What would happen if I let go of this doubt? How will my life change? How will my perception of the world change? Believe that you can be free if you choose to be, and that love and happiness and freedom are yours for the taking.